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I just wanted to write to say thank you all very much to everyone for your amazing support!!!!!!
I really, really want to write more, and the problem has always been figuring out what to say and the right way to say it. It is a process that can take me anywhere from ten minutes to ten months. And especially writing for fun, and not for school, writing because I want to and not have to, that is what I absolutely love the most. I know I am not the best writer by any means, but the fact that you let me know that I am appreciated means absolutely everything to me. To everyone who read my poem, You are More. thank you very, very much!!
I had a really good weekend, too. On Friday I saw my new favorite Disney movie with my dad, brother and grandma, Zootopia! I don't want to spoil anything for anyone who has yet to see it, but from someone who doesn't typically watch or own a lot of Disney animated movies, this was just brilliant and hilarious all around and I can't wait to own it when it comes out on DVD next month!
And today, I went back to my old high school to help my brother schedule his classes for next semester. There was a seminar scheduled from 6:00-8:00, but the entire town was at the high school softball game nearby instead. So very few teachers were actually there, and we couldn't really talk to any of them because they were helping other students. And so just as I turned around, my counselor from another table spotted me and smiled. She was so sweet and generous to me, she had given me opportunities to take college courses since I was sixteen, and she has really helped me both academically and personally.
Last year at around this time, I was a high school senior about to graduate, and I was more than done with high school. I never really made any friends. I never thought I would miss any of it so soon. And so I took too many credits, I did too much too soon, and I made mistake after mistake. I had finally gotten my wish, to be out of high school and start preparing for my new reality and occupation, whatever that may be. College has humbled me for sure, but it also made me feel very sad. I was no longer the optimist I was in high school. I accepted lower standards because I never could seem to meet my own expectations. I waged war against myself and lost. I came in ready to take on the world, and came out fall semester having no passion left for anything.
But this year, I logged in for the first time in many months and learned how to do something I never thought I could do in a million years, I learned how to animate. I made mistakes, but I learned from them and became better, and even made some friends along the way. And I want to do the same thing in my life. I want to learn from my mistakes and be a better student. I want to become as passionate and driven as I was before times ten. And I finally felt that passion in my heart again when I got invited back to the staff team for Girls State. It was as if some burden in my heart has been lifted at last, I feel like a new person to have this opportunity again to teach and assist and empower people. It gives me a sense of purpose and direction which I need in the face of uncertainty.
I am already packed (which for someone as unorganized as myself, says a lot about my excitement about this ) and I leave in ten days. I will be offline from June 10-18, if you have any requests for anything during that time note me and I will get to them when I come back.
Also, thank you ArtByErin3 for commissioning me my new ID! (It's me modeled after my favorite Star Wars character, Master Yoda ) It looks amazing and even better than I imagined it!
More than anything, I wanted to write to remind others and remind myself that our failures and past mistakes don't define us, and neither do other peoples judgments or our own thoughts of self doubt and anxiety. We can't go back and change anything, and we shouldn't want to and have the sting of regret prevent us from uncovering new purpose. We can only learn from our past and move forward. We are more than those who knock us down or stand in our way, but our own biggest enemy more often than not is our own overly critical selves.
I really, really want to write more, and the problem has always been figuring out what to say and the right way to say it. It is a process that can take me anywhere from ten minutes to ten months. And especially writing for fun, and not for school, writing because I want to and not have to, that is what I absolutely love the most. I know I am not the best writer by any means, but the fact that you let me know that I am appreciated means absolutely everything to me. To everyone who read my poem, You are More. thank you very, very much!!
I had a really good weekend, too. On Friday I saw my new favorite Disney movie with my dad, brother and grandma, Zootopia! I don't want to spoil anything for anyone who has yet to see it, but from someone who doesn't typically watch or own a lot of Disney animated movies, this was just brilliant and hilarious all around and I can't wait to own it when it comes out on DVD next month!
And today, I went back to my old high school to help my brother schedule his classes for next semester. There was a seminar scheduled from 6:00-8:00, but the entire town was at the high school softball game nearby instead. So very few teachers were actually there, and we couldn't really talk to any of them because they were helping other students. And so just as I turned around, my counselor from another table spotted me and smiled. She was so sweet and generous to me, she had given me opportunities to take college courses since I was sixteen, and she has really helped me both academically and personally.
Last year at around this time, I was a high school senior about to graduate, and I was more than done with high school. I never really made any friends. I never thought I would miss any of it so soon. And so I took too many credits, I did too much too soon, and I made mistake after mistake. I had finally gotten my wish, to be out of high school and start preparing for my new reality and occupation, whatever that may be. College has humbled me for sure, but it also made me feel very sad. I was no longer the optimist I was in high school. I accepted lower standards because I never could seem to meet my own expectations. I waged war against myself and lost. I came in ready to take on the world, and came out fall semester having no passion left for anything.
But this year, I logged in for the first time in many months and learned how to do something I never thought I could do in a million years, I learned how to animate. I made mistakes, but I learned from them and became better, and even made some friends along the way. And I want to do the same thing in my life. I want to learn from my mistakes and be a better student. I want to become as passionate and driven as I was before times ten. And I finally felt that passion in my heart again when I got invited back to the staff team for Girls State. It was as if some burden in my heart has been lifted at last, I feel like a new person to have this opportunity again to teach and assist and empower people. It gives me a sense of purpose and direction which I need in the face of uncertainty.
I am already packed (which for someone as unorganized as myself, says a lot about my excitement about this ) and I leave in ten days. I will be offline from June 10-18, if you have any requests for anything during that time note me and I will get to them when I come back.
Also, thank you ArtByErin3 for commissioning me my new ID! (It's me modeled after my favorite Star Wars character, Master Yoda ) It looks amazing and even better than I imagined it!
More than anything, I wanted to write to remind others and remind myself that our failures and past mistakes don't define us, and neither do other peoples judgments or our own thoughts of self doubt and anxiety. We can't go back and change anything, and we shouldn't want to and have the sting of regret prevent us from uncovering new purpose. We can only learn from our past and move forward. We are more than those who knock us down or stand in our way, but our own biggest enemy more often than not is our own overly critical selves.
My Own 'March Madness'
This month will be one of the craziest, transitional, and stressful months in my life.
In two weeks, I will graduate from college with a bachelor's degree in Humanities and a minor in Political Science. I am still waiting to hear back from the office of admissions for graduate school. I am working on my last and final essay of my undergraduate career for my Intro to Public Policy class (and it will be one of my longest as well). I will take my last final exams as an undergraduate student. I will soon find out if I will be going to school again, or if I will be searching for jobs instead.
I also have a decision to make that I have been wrest
#ShowYourHeart Feature: Star Wars!
So I'm doing some challenges to get the new Valentines Day badge, and challenge #3 is to make a journal featuring deviations about a topic that I love, (which of course, is Star Wars!) So here is a feature of some amazing Star Wars art! If you have Star Wars art that you would like me to add, post the thumbnail in the comments! :D :heart: #ShowYourHeart
22nd Birthday Journal and Cake Trade!
Am I actually 22?! I'm getting so old! :nuu:
Birthdays after 21 are not very eventful. I have no plans or expectations for my 22nd birthday. I used to make such huge deals about birthdays and parties in general. I wanted every day to be a celebration. I was so obsessed with balloons and my dad would take me to Party City and pick out balloons for me, or steal balloons from apartment signs. My dad made any obscure holiday a reason for us to have parties, just because I loved them so much. But although I'm older now, I still love birthdays and will still gladly take this day as an excuse to eat too many sweets and take some time for myself to
Thinking about the Future.
Hey everyone,
I hope you're all enjoying your summer. It's been a while, and again, I apologize for my inactivity. I finished my summer term last week. I was supposed to take one more three credit course, but it seemed too demanding for four weeks, and August has usually been my busiest transcription month, so I erred on the side of caution and dropped it.
I've had a pretty good start at my new university. I've liked all the professors that I have had so far, and received straight As in my classes, which helped to raise my overall college GPA. I took two philosophy courses, a legal writing class, and a creative memoir writing class in the s
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Great to hear and Great picture too.